Spew Anew

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Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life

Move. Care. Be excited. Be passionate. Love. Scream. Hate. Get pissed off.

You are worth more than indifference. Towards yourself, towards life.

You deserve to care and feel cared for.

You’ve spent long enough sleep walking, wake UP.

Girls can love you, Grandmothers can leave you

Careers can fizzle, Education can cost

It is okay to succeed. It’s okay to take up space, you don’t have to earn it. You won’t wither, you won’t buckle under disappointing glares.

You’ve never had faith. In God, in people around you, in yourself. The only thing you’ve consistently believed in is the conditional. And you’ve used it as a crutch;

You don’t get to be upset about life passing you by when you NEVER WOKE UP

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

What are your favorite types of foods?

Cereal – grains with milk sauce

Pasta – butter, cheese, mariana… sauces

Burgers – meat with salad and bread sauce

Ice cream – heavy cream sauce with flavors

Sushi – fish with rice sauce

Sandwiches – toppings in bread sauce

SAUCE

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

How often do you walk or run?

People who run, by choice, are really a different breed. I have so much admiration.

Walking or running implies I, with enthusiasm, want to be somewhere besides the place that I am… and that’s simply never the case

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

Do you see yourself as a leader?

I see myself as a forced leader. I shrink from being placed is positions of authority. I do not want the responsibility that comes with power, nor do I want to exercise the ambition required by the ladder.

However, I am the first person to answer a question with kindness.

I am a rational problem solver with a firm belief that with enough will power and charm, any issue can be resolved amicably.

If I must lead, I will do so to ensure that no one less qualified than me will take my place.

I can’t decide if I don’t want to be a leader out of fear or laziness. It’s exhausting to always be expected to have an answer. The pressure of being influential can be debilitating.

This wasn’t the answer I thought I would give, but MAN can anonymity make you honest.

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

I see the poems of desperation

The rolling hills, sunset skies

Mourning brides, disheartened men

Babies who don’t know anything different

I see poems of court

Loving glances

Twirling strands, looks of lust

Where are the poems of authenticity?

Spoken in words that bite and bleed

The poems that tell entitled bins to fuck off

The poems that sound like grunts of indifference

The poems that remind us that we created the world and we will answer for it

Friendly reminder: it is not that fucking serious. Have a Dr. Pepper, take a shower, and remember that you will always be your own home.

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

Strut in a thong

Make a sandwich

Slurp coffee

Who wants to be the boss anyway?

I hope anyone who sees this has the Monday they want, not what they need.

Also, I’m still not sure what to do on here besides word vomit. So hang in there!

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

Song of the day: Motion – Ty Dolla$

Purchase of the day: Adult Heelys

Mood of the day: let’s get it

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

All I can think about is Schiaparelli’s opening 2024 couture looks and Robert Wun’s ‘Humanity Walks the Runway’ collection.

No other thoughts, I am but a SPECK in the divination junction between fashion and soul

The Flesh

The Blood

The Bones

The Soul

Beneath it all… we are not the same. And that is okay. I am not okay. I am reeling!!!! This is so beautiful it hurts.

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

I don’t know if I’m alive

Until you ask why my breathing slowed

I wasn’t cold until I took your coat

I was hungry before you fed me green

I don’t know what it is to be alive without you

I’m not sure how to be

Stairwells descend

Clouds collect from rivers and seas

Is this how cavemen discovered fire?

From tip to tip, the drawn out tingle

Coming together, collecting light

I took at my first breath at 27

And it all started with a diet sprite

I am infatuated, obsessed, utterly shattered and wholly put together by the love I’m experiencing. I’ve told you once, and I will tell you again, I don’t crave you like a drug. I don’t need you like a dependent.

There isn’t a world that I want to live in where you don’t exist.

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Top Thoughts

Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?

I hope peace comes

I want resolution to bleed

I need the change of pace

When it does

I hope I lose a knot in my back

I want conflict to settle

I need the change of pace

Despite the heaviness, I feel light. I’m boldened by anonymity. None of this probably makes sense to a bystander, but I hope you read it and feel the struggle. I will find my way through it. I may lose time and purpose, but I can’t lose faith.

Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.

Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.

Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.

i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,

The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.