I am so scared of my own success. I am terrified of letting the people I love down. I’m so worried that the worst thoughts I’ve had about myself are true. What if I fuck up and everyone sees the person I’ve fought so hard to change?
Wow, this is what people mean when they say journaling works. Deep Breath. Pivot.
Speaking of change,
I’m so excited that I have the opportunity to prove myself on a visible scale. I feel like I can finally be ambitious unabashedly, I feel free to hold myself to a new standard. There are so many people in the world who feel stuck – shit I’m one of them – and yet, I’ve been presented with an opportunity to break out of the box I built.
Change is scary. Life is hard. But I get to choose my hard. I have done hard things before. The people I love are not on my shoulders for pressure, but for presence. I am loved, I am enough, and they believe in me.
I’m allowed to mess up. I’m allowed to thrive. I’m not allowed to sabotage myself or my team because of fear.
Spew Anew 